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Что такое очень раненное вдруг всплыло, когда я перечитала пост Марины Травковой в ФБ о том, что кто-то собирается украсть чужие истории и обвинить жертв насилия. Что-то очень раненное собственное поднялось внутри. Я не участвовала в этом флешмобе. Но я одна из тех с кем это случалось. И с той поры я учусь себя любить, защищать, отстаивать, поддерживать.

Мне больно и обидно за них за всех, а больше всего за себя. Внутри стоят слезы. Как будто хочется что-то оплакать. И с чем-то проститься. В голове одна мысль. Больно, больно, больно. Хочется прибежать к маме уткнуться в грудь и поплакать о том, как много в мире злости и боли. Как страшно в нем быть такой беззащитной. А она бы обняла так хорошо, хорошо и сказала: «девочка моя, милая моя, сильная слабая девочка. Плачь. Плачь о том, чего никогда не случится. Плачь о том, чего никогда не было в твоей жизни. Когда ты плачешь, ты прощаешься и проживаешь частичку своей боли, которую носишь в себе. Когда ты плачешь, ты освобождаешься от нее. Иди вперед. Учись быть мужественной. Быть мужественной это не значит не испытывать боль, не значит не бояться. Это значит идти дальше несмотря ни на что. Потихоньку. Так как умеешь сейчас. А я буду просто рядом. Я буду смотреть на тебя, держать тебя за руку и верить. Потому что я знаю, что когда ты позволяешь себе быть по-настоящему слабой и уязвимой, только тогда ты становишься по-настоящему сильной. Открыть путь к своей силе можно только через слабость. И я буду с тобой в этом. Буду со всей своей осознанностью и принятием. Буду, честно разделяя с тобой все это процессы. Буду больше в молчании, чем в говорении, потому что в этой теме молчание бывает красноречивее слов. Иди вперед дорогая. Иногда останавливайся. Иногда делай шаг назад. Это все жизнь. Она бывает разная и иногда нужно отступить, чтобы придти туда, куда тебе действительно нужно. Больше нет оценок, нет понятий. Есть только шаги, действия, чувства и переживания. И я рядом. И пусть все происходит так, как происходит. Иди».


Моя мама никогда не говорила мне таких слов. Просто у нее их не было. Просто ее мама не говорила ей таких слов. Она много чего для меня делала другого. Но я научилась говорить их себе сама. И теперь я чувствую, что внутри меня поселилась моя собственная мама, которую я никогда не потеряю. Я ее вырастила. Она стала частью меня. И она будет со мной.

Нельзя с жертвами так. Им нужно много много времени, чтобы вырастит в себе эту самую внутреннюю маму, которая скажет те самые очень нужные только для них слова, которая будет защищать и оберегать. И возможно это только в заботе...


(на фото работа Татьяны Волковой http://www.livemaster.ru/tanya-volkova)